Today Is The Day

Today is my big day

Quite nervous for the whole day

But i already prepared myself

Decided not to check my result until i reached home after law class

So i was quite calm for the day

As i already made up my mind

Everyone waited to get the result before entering class

So when class started the attendance was quite lousy

But the lecturer knew that this was going to happen

So she just continue teaching and allowed all of us to get a longer break time to go check our result

I did not check my own result

So i just followed Arif to go check at the computer lab as the library was packed

Arif did quite well but he did not passed t8

He was okay about it as he say he already expected it to be like that

So went back to class and everyone was discussing about their results and stuff

Heard quite a lot of sad stories about friends failing

It shake me quite a bit

But in the end i was not affected much

Went back by ktm as usual

Was thinking quite a lot about the result on the way back

Told myself that there is nothing to be afraid of

Went home like usual

Have my dinner

Rest myself a while

Then went to access the internet

And opened all my email and saw my result

I PASSED~!!

My heart felt so relaxed and at ease the moment i knew i passed

Now can really go sleep and eat with ease

WooHooo~!!

Thanks For Liking

=D

=Jasonz=

Flying Without Wings~!!

Countdown: 2 Days

Tomorrow is the big day

Result day

The stress is affecting me a lot

I felt that my whole feelings and emotions today are very shaky
Really wanted to find something to share all the stress that been building up since friday

But everyone seems so busy with their own personal stuff

Afraid that asking them to chat with me will really affect their stuffs

So i kept everything inside of my tiny heart

Can feel my heart beating very hard

I can feel the stress physically and mentally

So easy to create stress and yet so hard to erase it

Can anyone lend me an ear or both ears

Listen to me pouring out all my stress that i have been building

Listen to me telling out everything that i have kept within

Lend me a helping hand

Anyone?

I been starring at my phone for days

Waiting to message you

Thinking about what should i message you after so long

Typing and deleting every message that i think i want to send you

Hesitating whether or not should i press the send button

Wondering what will be your reaction to my message

Pondering whether will you reply my message

Figuring out what will you reply me

Thinking how should i reply your message

Wondering how long will this thing repeats itself

Wondering how long will this last

I am still waiting for myself

Waiting........

=Jasonz=

Stress Level: 99.99%

Countdown:3 Days

Countdown timer is 3 days from today

As the time slowly reduces 1 second by 1 second

I can feel my heart pounding faster and harder against my chest

Sending huge amount of blood into my small, tiny, fragile brain

With the increase amount of hormones stimulating my brain

All those horror thoughts of me failing my exams

Really makes myself getting more and more unsound

How can anyone stay calm and cool under these pressure

Every student will experience this in any line of studies

The eagerness and the rush to obtain the result

To calm your restless mind if you pass or score

Or to break your heart even more than it already had been if you failed

I tried to tell myself

No point crying over split milk

I have already did my best in the best

All i can do now is to enjoy my coming days before opening the email containing my results

But how can i possibly do that~!!

I must find something to do that will distract my mind from thinking about result day

Which i successfully did

I manage to distract myself by playing StarCraft2

Its THE game of the year which is awaited by many gamers all around the world

I played StarCraft before so playing StarCraft2 was like must for me

As i need to know the continuation of the story and the ending of the storyline

But then i think its distract me too much that i can't even focus much on my current studies

I got my law paper result today

Well it properly reflected my preparation for that particular examination

I failed very miserably the worst in my ACCA studies

Well i must quickly reflect upon the failure and repent and get back on my feet

But for now its StarCraft2 time

Saw her a few times in KTM

Saw him a few times in KTM

Don't get the urging feeling or the storming heartbeat anymore

I think that it had really subsides

But these will not change the facts or the things that i had done something awful

Time really do heals and help us move forward

No point staying in the past and suffering while everyone is moving forward

We must also let go of the pass but remember it at heart

Letting Go, Moving On

Simple yet meaningful words

=Jasonz=

Jason: Die Zerg~!! Wakakakaka~!! Die~!! Die~!! Die~!!

Pc: GameOver......Jason You Suck~!!

Jason: Fucking PC~!! SHUTUP ~!!

PC: *Deletes StarCraft 2, Then Shuts Down* Fuck You Jason

Jason: NOOOOOOOOOOOO~!!

Mum: WOII, Dont Talk To Yourself~!!

Jason: =..=-!!!

Chinese Valentine Day

7th day of the 7th month of the Chinese lunar calendar

is also known as the Chinese valentine day

There is of no need to tell people what to do on this day

As people with common sense and without common sense will know what to do

Love Love Love Love Love

You can sense it everywhere and anywhere

It rained today, on this very special day

Its as if the sky itself is pouring its tears

To show that even the great sky feels sad for the couple

Which can only meet each other once a year

On this very day

After being separated for 364/5 days

To them the one day itself represent countless emotions

To them this one day is as long as one year or even more

Then to be separated again until the next reunion date

This tells us to appreciate everything that we have

Whether its near us or far away from us

We must appreciate them

The people we love and adore

The people we knew and meet

The people we talked to and walked with

The people we hugged and kissed with

The people we missed and think about

The people that we can never ever forget

Appreciate them

Never break their heart

Never let them go

Never forget them

=Jasonz=

You Make My Day So Wonderful~!!

Thanks Girl

Countdown To The Great Flood

Another week left until the unveiling of my results

Whether or not i can proceed with my current studies all depends on this result

Whether i fall or move on all depends on this small email that will arrive at 23th August 2010 at the afternoon

The exam which is usually described as The Great Flood or Tsunami

As when the results releases on that particular

Student(including me) who don't have a strong boat

While die in the tsunami

Which in end means they have to fall back to CAT and unable to move on to ACCA

Its quite frustrating as i have to spend another 6 months to study the subject that i failed

And take the exam again

Which means in short i am actually wasting my 6 months

Hopefully my result will be nice

I don't place much high hopes as the Audit paper for the June sitting is tough

A nice and wonderful pass will make my day

So here i am

Counting down to the day the tsunami hits me

Countdown: 7 Days

Good to know that you are getting back onto your feet again

At least u can avoid all those hard to digest medicine

Try to maintain your health

Health is more important than anything you can mention

Take care and goodluck in your future undertakings

My legs and hands are very nice now

Even the slightest touch can cause me pain

This shows that i don't have sufficient exercise

Should constantly exercise to keep fit

So that i don't need to see those tires dangling on my precious abs

Sleep time

Rawr~!!

It hurts like hell

=Jason=

Hammering And Nailing Sounds Through Out The House

Mum: Wad You Doing?

Me: Fixing My Boat

Mum: What for

Me: Tsunami coming lah

Mum: Panicking~~

Me: Tsunami means result day

Mum: CHEH~!!

Me: =...=!!!

Shooting Stars

Heard this news from flyfm when i was driving to KTM today morning
They say that according to News Straits Time, today midnight until tomorrow dawn there will be meteor shower
When i heard about it i was quite curious to check whether its authentic or is it fake
Flip through the newspaper and saw the small column that confirms the statement made by them
I was quite excited as i never actually see a meteor before
I mean a real meteor, not those you see in those dramas and movies
I have a few wishes in mind that i would actually hope they come true
It may be awkward to say all those wishes out
But then these are only just examples of the real wishes that i want
P/S Wishes said out wont come true*Myth*
1.) Hope i pass my CAT final exams so that i can continue pursuing ACCA
2.) Hope i improve my own attitude and behaviour
3.) Hope that all my friends and family are blesses with good health and happiness
4.) Hope i can fix my relationship with HER

Some wish might come come true some might not
Yeah i may be a greedy person for having so much wishes at the same time
But at least i am not those people who wish to have more wishes
I will be happy if any of those that i wished even came true
The others can be achieved through hardwork

Saw YingYing at college today
It was her orientation day at college
Wish her all the best in her future undertakings
May she have a wonderful time in college as well as during her stay in the hostel

To You
I am still not ready to forgive myself
Until i fully forgive myself i truthfully wish you the following
Hope you will do well in your future undertakings
Hope you are always healthy and happy
Hope you can catch a glimpse of the meteor

=Jason=
Can You Pretend That Airplanes On The Night Sky Like Shooting Stars.....
While Waiting To Catch A Glimpse Of Meteor
Eh That Is Airplane Ke Atau Meteor~?? =..=

I Hate To Be Sick

I Hate To Be Sick

You Cant Do Anything Right When You Are Sick

What Will Happen To My Test?

Hope I Will DO Just Fine

Hope I Wont Suffer

Die Die Die

Emotions

Emotions

Are something all of us have

Some of us are blessed with deep emotions

That help us to understand people feelings and thought more

Some are blessed with lesser emotions

That made us ignorant to other people feelings

I am not good at keeping or controlling my emotions

I tend to express it all out without thinking about the consequences

I know its not good venting out emotions

Because it hurts everyone around us

I am trying my best to learn to control my own emotions

Its not easy

But i will try all best to learn and accept them

Until then please forgive me for anything offending actions i did

=Jasonz=

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