I lie in my bed and calm myself down
Its that feeling again, i told myself
Its here again to haunt me
Every time i have that emotion, i will have this feeling
That very emotion which is called, jealousy
I am a person that get jealous very easily
Which is something i am trying to change but a change don't happen immediately
It takes time for a person to change their attitude and behavior
I am jealous of my friends, how they are able to connect with each other so easily
While i struggle to maintain my friendship with my friends
I am jealous of my friends, how they are able to improve so fast
While i struggle to improve myself
I am jealous of my friends, how they are able to express their thoughts freely
While i struggle to express my own thought
I am jealous of my friends, how they are able to do everything they want
While i am confined to my own little space
Jealousy hurts a lot
Its a natural feeling that i cant really control
I feel jealous because you are someone important in my life
I feel jealous because you mean a lot to me
I feel jealous because i want to do the exact same thing to you
I feel jealous because i care for you
But in the end it all falls back into the one same thing
I feel jealous because i cannot do the things you do
Felt a lot better after expressing myself
Am changing my behavior to be a better person
Said this a thousand time but this time i am serious of it
Cant totally change a person because we are not machine
We cant be FORMATTED and REPROGRAMMED
Its takes time to change and i will take the first step towards it
Toward a better Jason Chia not a NEW Jason Chia
Never give up!!
=Jasonz=
If you are not important to me, i will never ever care about you,
But once you are important to me, everything about you is precious.
